why do i do this to myself?

This is totally me right now:

This too:



Everybody was at least one thing that they struggle with. An internal battle between you and God, that always seems like a constant, never ending battle. Just about the time I feel like I've conquered it, I screw it up, and my first immediate thought is this:


The best you can do is brace yourself and hope that the worst case scenario DOESN'T happen, even if you know you full well deserve it.

*sigh*


That's the only explanation I'm giving, just needed to say how stupid i can be sometimes.